I love this song - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-dzl0XcDRo
I figured I'd post on here again with something not.. raging. Haha.Life is having it's ups and downs as always, good things happening but the bad come around to meet their every step. Yet I'm not feeling to overwhelmed or depressed about it, in fact I'm having a hard time even thinking about the bad things. I'm just so thoroughly distracted in giggles and smiles.... It's honestly baffling.
So this new guy name Grill I might while back has really been warming up to me, I really wasn't sure what to make of it. I was shy but mostly scared.. After how my ex left with his selected parting words I didn't want to emotionally invest in anything other than myself and my dogs.
But quickly this guy is practically shoving his way into my life, and.. well... heck I kind of like it. I need to get to know him better and spend more time with him, I'm finding myself to be really nervous to do so, it's just hard to show someone all your flaws.
And yet I really want too.. So weird, haha. I've never thought of myself as a touchy-cuddly person. I never was in previous relationships, I felt awkward and crowded, like I couldn't breathe. I couldn't stand to have them so close which is why a long distance relationship was so perfect at the time. I get to be lovey-dovey on my won terms without the cling, I actually hated being touched by my ex sad as that is... But I'm finding this to be completely opposite now, Grill takes my hand, gives me little kisses, and I can feel myself blushing. Even now I find myself wanting to snuggle in a little closer which again. Weird for me. I'm not a touchy person. Hmm.. maybe it's the rush of infatuation? Who really knows.What I've decided though is that I'll roll with it. I figured, why not? I've been hurt many times before and it's always made me a stronger, better person for it. I'll leap again and sincerely hope this time my landing is a little more softer.
I just hope he'll ask me officially again now. c: So romantic that way. Haha... I'm such a nerd.
I've been drawing so much lately, mostly work... But hey it's still art. My wrists aren't having any problems any more, it's pretty amazing!!! I haven't felt any strains for almost two months now. I'm so happy! But my back is hurting more than ever... I seriously think I need to start seeing a professional to work on it. It hurts so bad. :C
Also cats and dogs don't like Pop-Its. Unless you're my corgi named Candy, she darts after them biting the ground! She's such a goof, that's why I love her. Even if she's the worlds biggest brat.
I think I need to try not biting my nails again. Get the who growth formula and everything.. I'm so nervous about my hands and I'm biting so bad again they're raw and in so much pain, just one less thing I need. But not biting them will be hell to do, longest I've ever gone was 3 weeks.
Work over at Subeta hopefully will take a turn for the better, I've been less than my best. I've spent to much time worrying about other things that I'm not taking my job into real consideration and I'm really working hard to fix that. I just hope I'm not to late to prove my worth to their site.
And my commissions have been going pretty good too! Soon as I can sit down and get started on them I have a super hard time trying to stop even if it's to eat or sleep... LIKE RIGHT NOW lol!
I made some doodles too!
This is a doodle for a friend, her name is Kiminess on Subeta! -^
This was a drawing of my own pet named Navon.-^
This is my Supsaur. He's pretty chill. -^
Haha, Gotta love random doodles... One thing I do really miss lately is the thrill of ordering a new book every couple of weeks, but my bad budgeting has finally caught up to me so it looks like my amazon wish list will have to wait a couple of months at least before I can pick up another new book. But I do love my current collection and love love love to reread them over and over. It's so amazing to see how these teams created whole new worlds for their stories, I just sit here in awe hoping some day I can do the same.
That's all I got for now, seeing how I still haven't slept...... hm. Not good.
Haha, thanks for reading everyone!
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