Paw Print Stars

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2010-10-19T09:02:00.001-05:00

Made myself an easy to use tumblr account to post doodles on.

http://doodleloser.tumblr.com/
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Frustrated...

2010-10-17T12:33:00.003-05:00

I'm sick of everyone right now. Uhg. Can't even draw due to the frustration...

oiii....

Just gotta work work work...... Get rid of all the bad things and focus on work.

Up in the Stars

2010-10-11T08:05:00.004-05:00

I remember promising more pictures to show of my short short hair! Here is a whole photobucket gallery [PLEASE BEWARE, THERE ARE SOME NSFW PICTURES] of a bunch of pictures goofy and cute that I've taken over the month!

News, news, news! I've applied for a new job over at Target to work overnight flow/stocking. I got the job easy as pie! Now it's just a new goal to be a MAN and keep at the job hard working and 100%! I can't be flaky about it since I really need to save up the cash!

Above is me after orientation, I won a little Target Puppy Plushie for guessing closest to what our store is scored out of 1700. I guessed 50, it was actually 65. Pretty damn good for little ol' Grand Forks ND right?

Well many things have hit the fan since my last post here. I've moved back home with my mom after losing my contract with Subeta which was completely understandable. All bads on my part. I wasn't sure if I could get another job fast enough to manage on my own so to be safe than sorry I convinced my mom to let me move back into the computer room. She cleaned up my room so nicely I couldn't have it back, lol.

This in the long run helps me with my long term goals. By the end of next spring/start of next summer I plan to be moving to Kentucky. I have no reasons to stay in North Dakota, I'm not successful any career, I'm not in school, I'm.. just.. well lurking here. And that's not the life I want. So I'm going to be much more active and shaping up and getting my life into some reality checks! By moving out of the home state I'm accomplishing one goal, I'll be much closer to any if not a ton of conventions of ALL different sorts. Yes, this means next year summer/fall I will officially be attending conventions! Crazy right? It will be a way to help promote myself as an artist and meet all the crazy cool people I know by the internet.

That much aside, the move has gone well, I have everything MOSTLY in order. I just gotta get my name off the lease at the old house and swap over all the bills to one of the room mates. I just keep getting distracted and never have the time to get a hold of her which again is my bad.

Other deals in my life... Well romantics I suppose, I'm just not cut out for it right now I think. I have a lot on my plate self-goal wise that I don't have the energy to keep up with a new love interest. The first one, Grill, as you all may have seen did not turn out so well. I dated him for a short 3 weeks but that clearly was just enough to make a man go crazy. I was extremely sad to find out in the end he really didn't care about me... He only wanted to get laid and I was the closest option to it. Now all he has to say about me are filthy names... He's a crazy guy, but if you're not romantically inclined to him I think he's still some what of a good person. He was a really nice guy and seemed like a good friend to talk to and hang out with. If only I didn't have tits. :/ I can't seem to keep any good guy friends because they all just want sex.... Shit really sucks.

Next one was a really sweet kid that was introduced to me by a friend, but there is a lot of growing up to do on both sides. I just wanted to play cute little crush girl again but it wasn't the right time. After two failed attempts I now more officially now it's better off to just wait.

I know how to date someone I've fallen in LOVE with. Someone who is a dear friend to me, who is a relief to talk to, is a complete blast to be with. Even when we fight we end up laughing over it hours later. That is the man[or woman] I need to date. This whole, "Hey I sorta like you" nonsense isn't getting me anywhere romance wise. So I'll just cut that shit out now lol. Sticking to the cute, fun, playful and single flirt!

Art wise for me right now is really tough stuff... I've lost just about all my drive lately. I bet my customers are cursing my name as I type this, but I just can't seem to get a good grasp on my art-self. I think I've been hurt a few to many times lately and left in a muck of emotional sulking that I don't know how to fix just yet. It's not a simple "hugs feel better" instant fix! It's just something that has to come naturally on it's own or else I'm only half-assing all my work.. And that's not what my customers are paying for. I want to give them the best I can do.

Just right now I'm completely stumped... Even when drawing for myself I can't seem to get out a scribble or two. It hurts since I want to draw, I have some ideas in my head that I'd like to get on screen, but when I sit down to do it.... Nothing is there. I feel empty, weak, almost lifeless.... It's a horrible feeling.

So right now I'm just looking for my spark and praying that my customers will forgive me and be patient. Hopefully I can at least refund the people who do get to frustrated with me now that I have a job. Not a good way to please a customer although... :C

Life is tough, it has it's ups and downs. Regardless of all the distance that is happening between me and my friends right now, the repeating heart breaks, and terrible nightmares I think I'm still pretty positive and happy. Or at least I'm trying really hard to be...

Leaving this post with a little song lyric.

♪♫ I'll watch you falling from me,
When you hit the ground maybe you'll see,
The only way to fall is down
and I'll be up in the stars
but I'll be anywhere you are,
just say you need me and I'll come down ♪♫

Hurts to say it. But I miss him so much.

Sigh.. Thanks for reading,
AJ <3

Hair Cut!

2010-09-08T02:50:00.005-05:00

These are shitty camera phone pictures, sorry in advance! But I just wanted to update real quick about my new short short hair cut. :D

BEFORE....AFTER....

Also keep in mind I let my roomie "style" it too. I'm really NOT a fan of product of any kind touching my hair. So I'll update later with better quality photos with more natural fluffy hair. c:

squeeee short cheap hair just before freezing winter.. oh god what have I done lol.

Get your ducks in a row!

2010-08-31T05:10:00.003-05:00

Hey everyone, been a little while again since I last posted right? Haha...

Since then I've been on and off again with life, go figure, but you do what you can with it. I've been putting up my business cards around town, no emails yet but then again not everyone in the general public understands or enjoys art the way customers do on FA/DA/Other sites similar.

Played around with the dating game again with a super swell guy, but only to realize that it was to soon and I wasn't prepared to jump that deep yet. It's a shame since I liked him well enough, but it just wasn't enough if you know what I mean...

I've just been thinking lately after my last stresser this month how even more so I need to get my ducks in a row, get my plans made up, priorities straight so that the next time I want to take a swim in the love pool I might be a little more ready. But for now I'm happy just to dab my feet in the shallows, maybe break some hearts and have a few loose ends. Life is gamble! Win or lose, you're still living it with another chance to roll. And that's what I'm doing, I got a little stung from the last guy here and as I do feel I deserved a little of it he was taking 20 steps faster than I could ever manage to catch up. So here I am, rolling again.

Today has been stressful, hurtful, lots of things. I lost another friend even though I kept my heart open to them. People just don't care to keep things like me around I guess, so I'll keep looking for the people who will find me worth while to keep around regardless of what tag I wear to them. They are the ones worth searching for after all!

I spent my day moping around the house, but I did manage to get some doodles done. Nothing to incredibly fancy but I made a new character for an art club I'm in on DeviantArt. It's called Valley of Siyyon and my newest character there is Sirius the Qilin taurkin! I'm also a club moderator there, I help out by being the creativity behind the Humans and Spirit animals part of the club. I have a lot cut out for me that's for my spare time when I'm not working for subeta or on my commissions. Speaking of which I need to get back and cracking on those! I have a lovely break since my last quota due-date and now that I think my near-burn-out is over I can roll back into work.

Last I did tonight was take a really long hot shower, got completely squeaky clean. Tossed on a shirt and shorts and went walking around town all odd hours of the night. Got some hoots and hollas, waved and smiled. It was hard though, I felt pretty glum even after drawing today... By the time I got back near my house it was about 4:25am and I was at the park. I just wandered over to the swing set like I did at my moms place and her lil park and sat down.. I sat there letting the cold breeze swing over me, it was so refreshing. But all of sudden I found myself crying.

I cried long and hard for a good 30 minutes at the least.... I sat there and thought all the "Oh poor me" thoughts I could manage to think up. Soon enough as my head started to pound I got up sniffling wiping away all my snot and tears on my shirt I walked back home. I got inside the house where my two dogs were waiting excitedly for me. Shutting the door behind me I just sat down on the stairs still sniffling and crying here and there to myself but my two pooches wouldn't have that.

They both came wagging up to me and got right in my face licking all the slop, I groaned in disgust but then began to laugh because no matter how hard I tried to push them away they aways came back pushing against me, trying to get my lap, getting under my arms. Just doing what they do best, making their momma happy as can be. It was then I started to think about all the amazing things I do have in my life. I have a brand new car, I have wonderful friends, I have a mother who loves me, a house to sleep in, a job to pay for it all, two lovely little dogs who mean the world to me.

Even though there was no one there to hold me as I cried, to pat my head, rub my back, nothing at all like that... It's okay. I know it's a nice thing to have, but it's not a necessary thing to have. There are not a lot of people who can see that side of me, this completely broken sad self I try so hard to keep tucked away these days and I hope no one ever does have to see it. I hope I don't have to see it ever again too. But it will surface once in a while, but I'll remember to breath, to smile, and to tell everyone I care about how much I love them.

You hear that? I love you Mom, Jesse J, Katie B, Morgan S, Jackie L, Hayley H, Candy and Shade. You guys in your unimaginable ways help make my world go round. How you do it still baffles and astounds me. And I'm lucky. Thanks guys, I hope you know I miss you all so much even though we're so near each other I don't see you all nearly enough.

Ahh, life is tough. But we all manage one way or another. I hope some day I can do a little better than "manage".

Thanks for reading everyone. <3

Here's my card.

2010-08-07T15:20:00.006-05:00

So I just finally got my business cards in the mail today! Pretty exciting!

I designed them myself!
It took me 3 versions before this official copy to decide on a card, here are the previous ideas I was testing out before I came to my final decision on what I wanted to show to people through card form.

[1] was my very first attempt at a business card. Very bland, didn't catch attention, just.. all around boring.

[2] second attempt to be simple and to the point. But still I didn't think it was very me at all. I just didn't like the bright white feel it had.

[3] third attempt I didn't get very far. I just wanted to show people that I wanted more of a vivid, dark, eye catching card. Something flashy in a way.

[Final - 4] the last attempt was is the one I liked best. It came in various colors originally but in the end I believe that purple and yellow go hand in hand. Make both colors pop, stand out, just be there own. I wonder why I didn't think to draw a tablet pen since that's what I prefer to work with over a paint brush, I don't even know how to paint actually! Haha, pretty funny to think about.

I just had to update with my flashy new cards, I'm so happy now I have them to hand out when talking about my artistic career! C: Now I just gotta get into learning how to make prints, posters, cards, magnets, all those little trinkets and goodies. It amazing me how much I still have to learn in order to survive the art world business and I took no consideration before LEAPING into it, maybe that's the best way in the end for me. Paddle vigorously and hope to hell I don't sink.

Thanks for reading everyone!

Flowers over Candies

2010-08-02T13:29:00.008-05:00

Eeee, I just had to update RIGHT NOW!

I just got an adorable gift.

Grill snuck over to my house during a lunch break and left it on my care, proceeding to send me a picture text message saying there was a present waiting for me outside. You can not imagine my excitement as I tripped up my own stairs haha.
Isn't it gorgeous?!

Ok.. I admit, I was once one of those girls, "Flowers? Why the hell would I want flowers? Give me candy instead!" But after receiving my first rose... OMG I AM GIDDY <3

I just can't stop "Awwww" or "Squeeee!!!" ing over it all. It's just to sweet! Thank you Grill!!!!! <3 I remember where I had to hint like MAD to get previous guys to do.. well... anything. Sigh. +Rolls eyes at memories.+ But this kid? Holy shit he is on the BALL with all this! I didn't know guys like this existed any more. And I'm so happy he picked me. c:

I'm already turning out to be a horrible influence on the guy though, drawing him as a turtle and making him sign up on FurAffinity.net lol... SO BAD I know but it makes me happy that he seems interested in what I do and that I'm an artist. :D I'm use to people scoffing at me "That's not a real job" BS sort of idea.

But now when I make us tons of fan art.

Which I already got started on here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4247951
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4251623
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4253349

I get to tag him in them all since he does have an account, people won't be all "whodis?".

I need to get my butt back to work but I also can't seem to put this book down, some romance novel I picked up from walmart since we don't have any more book stores around le sigh. But it's called "Seven Secrets of Seduction" by Anne Mallory. So far I'm getting a real kick out of it and enjoying myself. But I gotta put it down so I can get back to drawing!!! Eep!

Haha, well that's my quick little fun update, thanks for reading! <3

Sweet on sweetness...

2010-08-01T10:12:00.008-05:00

So I've been listening to Jessie James nonstop lately. lol
I love this song - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-dzl0XcDRo

I figured I'd post on here again with something not.. raging. Haha.Life is having it's ups and downs as always, good things happening but the bad come around to meet their every step. Yet I'm not feeling to overwhelmed or depressed about it, in fact I'm having a hard time even thinking about the bad things. I'm just so thoroughly distracted in giggles and smiles.... It's honestly baffling.

So this new guy name Grill I might while back has really been warming up to me, I really wasn't sure what to make of it. I was shy but mostly scared.. After how my ex left with his selected parting words I didn't want to emotionally invest in anything other than myself and my dogs.
But quickly this guy is practically shoving his way into my life, and.. well... heck I kind of like it. I need to get to know him better and spend more time with him, I'm finding myself to be really nervous to do so, it's just hard to show someone all your flaws.

And yet I really want too.. So weird, haha. I've never thought of myself as a touchy-cuddly person. I never was in previous relationships, I felt awkward and crowded, like I couldn't breathe. I couldn't stand to have them so close which is why a long distance relationship was so perfect at the time. I get to be lovey-dovey on my won terms without the cling, I actually hated being touched by my ex sad as that is... But I'm finding this to be completely opposite now, Grill takes my hand, gives me little kisses, and I can feel myself blushing. Even now I find myself wanting to snuggle in a little closer which again. Weird for me. I'm not a touchy person. Hmm.. maybe it's the rush of infatuation? Who really knows.What I've decided though is that I'll roll with it. I figured, why not? I've been hurt many times before and it's always made me a stronger, better person for it. I'll leap again and sincerely hope this time my landing is a little more softer.

I just hope he'll ask me officially again now. c: So romantic that way. Haha... I'm such a nerd.

I've been drawing so much lately, mostly work... But hey it's still art. My wrists aren't having any problems any more, it's pretty amazing!!! I haven't felt any strains for almost two months now. I'm so happy! But my back is hurting more than ever... I seriously think I need to start seeing a professional to work on it. It hurts so bad. :C

Also cats and dogs don't like Pop-Its. Unless you're my corgi named Candy, she darts after them biting the ground! She's such a goof, that's why I love her. Even if she's the worlds biggest brat.
I think I need to try not biting my nails again. Get the who growth formula and everything.. I'm so nervous about my hands and I'm biting so bad again they're raw and in so much pain, just one less thing I need. But not biting them will be hell to do, longest I've ever gone was 3 weeks.

Work over at Subeta hopefully will take a turn for the better, I've been less than my best. I've spent to much time worrying about other things that I'm not taking my job into real consideration and I'm really working hard to fix that. I just hope I'm not to late to prove my worth to their site.

And my commissions have been going pretty good too! Soon as I can sit down and get started on them I have a super hard time trying to stop even if it's to eat or sleep... LIKE RIGHT NOW lol!

I made some doodles too!

This is a doodle for a friend, her name is Kiminess on Subeta! -^

This was a drawing of my own pet named Navon.-^
This is my Supsaur. He's pretty chill. -^

Haha, Gotta love random doodles... One thing I do really miss lately is the thrill of ordering a new book every couple of weeks, but my bad budgeting has finally caught up to me so it looks like my amazon wish list will have to wait a couple of months at least before I can pick up another new book. But I do love my current collection and love love love to reread them over and over. It's so amazing to see how these teams created whole new worlds for their stories, I just sit here in awe hoping some day I can do the same.

That's all I got for now, seeing how I still haven't slept...... hm. Not good.

Haha, thanks for reading everyone!

Real life updating!

2010-07-21T19:48:00.002-05:00

Ahh, haha. If you noticed the post below is still there. Why? I read it again and again, and you know what? I don't feel any different even after cooling down. Everything on that post was 120% correct, maybe harsh, but true. So I'll be leaving it up. c;

But yeah, life has been having it's ups and downs, you know life being what it is. I'm still desperately behind when it comes to money matters, slowly but surely I am catching up thankfully.

Rent and bills covered this month, I've been working steadily on my quota. Soon as that dead line is over I'm back on my commissions que that I have lined up. I'll be needing to get them done because I will be little short again next month thanks to my school loan BS.

But other than that life has been pretty okay. Hanging out with my friends, having good times, meeting some new people, perhaps developing new love interest? To early to say but hey, so long as we're having fun am I right? C:

I'll be updating here more often hopefully as I get back to arting again and showing some doodles here, wips, and other goodies. I'll be ranting here as well, so like my post before I won't promise to stop that because ranting here feels really good and it's fun to read and laugh later. Makes the stresses melt away.

Right now I think I'll be making some brownies actually, I've been craving them lately!

Make over time!

2010-05-02T05:11:00.002-05:00

Oh wow, lots of time has gone by! I'm just so happy that April is finally over. I really really am. Spring has finally come because the rain just won't stop pouring, haha. I'm sick of it! I can't wait for the sunshine again.

But in the mean time I did get a massive hair cut and coloring. My room mate Hayley asked if I could be a model for her friend Britney who studied at the salon with her and I agreed to it. Heck why not? It's just hair. It will always grow back. c:

So yeah I got a nice change! Check it out!

This is me and my Room mate Morgan! We both got to be models, Britney worked on me while Morgan got hers done by our room mate Hayley. We look amazing!

And here I took a picture with my stylist! Britney Rose! Pretty cool right? Haha, It's very different. I even wore fake eye lashes, can you believe it? I never ever wear anything more than lip gloss at most. Chap stick even.

But now after all this my friends are pretty pumped to get me styling my hair and get me to start working on my make up skills. I'm sure a little touching up would be nice, but nothing like this again, way to much! I actually got home, took a couple snap shots, and then took a lobster hot shower attempting to scrub it all off! PHEW! It was hard, and I still didn't even get it all off. Make up is tough stuff.

Other news is we got the Grill too! I'll have to take pictures when we first decide to use it. It's really excited, I love making mesquite marinated steaks on the grill, oh yum! My mouth is just watering thinking about it.

I haven't been drawing a whole lot lately. I can't seem to stay awake long enough to focus on well.. anything. And when I am awake I have killer head aches, migraines even. I'm really not sure what to do these days. I'm trying to relax and not worry as much as I have been this start of the year. I think I'll be able too now that a lot of conflicts have been dealt with. No real happy endings, but new beginnings.

And the more I'm living at the new house the more it's beginning to look like home in my room. Two book cases I'm eager to fill with art books, list can be found here on amazon: http://amzn.com/w/1UXKH4AEPVVZE I hope to fill my shelves with all sorts of art-related books and some interesting manga/novels.

My computer desk is a mess, I need to fix that soon. Place needs some serious vacuuming but after a little spit and shine it'll be pretty nice.

One thing that is really worrisome though... My tablet looks like it's on it's last legs. Which is not good what so ever. I was hoping I would at least have a couple more months but now I'm not sure. It's really troubling since all my income is based around my tablet and digital art. Aiee, I got to figure something out about that. I might get extra cash for my birthday so that'll go towards a new tablet plus whatever else I can manage to save from my pay checks.

The newer tablet I plan to get is the Intuos 4, medium size, black. I did a lot of thinking, a lot of reviewing, and so much more that I am not 210% positive that is the tablet I want to make my next partner. So all savings will go towards that. I might even have to break a couple of savings bonds if I have too... But yeah. I gotta do what I gotta do.

Other than that, not a whole lot else has been happening. I hope to update more with doodles soon as I'm feeling physically better! I'm itching to doodle!!!

Thank you for reading, loves of love, Ashi J!

Pit of FIIIIIRE

2010-04-12T23:42:00.003-05:00

Well as you all heard before I think, I posted about me getting a grill as a house warming gift later on, well thinking about the grill I also was thinking how great would it be to be able to sit outside like in the old days have a good old fashioned bomb fire. Sit around the flickering flames and tell stories, just like when I was little. I really miss that about the farm!

Well now I have a good chunk of that in my new home and in my new life, I was planning on later on purchasing a fire pit, but while I was over at my moms my roomie/friend Katie/Bikuu had mentioned it in front of my mother.

Now my mom stopped us, "Fire pit? I have one of those I never even opened!" She asked us if we would like it and I LEAPED at the chance to have a brand new never opened fire pit! That's saving a good 60 - 90$ from my pockets!

OMG SO EXCITED TO BE ROASTING WEENIES AND MARSHMALLOWS! <3

Just had to update here about it, so happy! Haha.. xD

Thanks for reading!

The cook is back!

2010-04-09T12:11:00.002-05:00

HOLY COW! I have to update here again, why you may ask?

Well I went over to my mom's yesterday. She said she had a few things there for me to pick up and take over to the new house, so I figure nothing special. Some frozen foods or little kitchen wear.

I walk in to bags of things lined up for me at the front door. Literally I stopped and dropped my jaw! My uncle Errol had purchased BRAND SPANKING NEW appliances for me to get started on! This is beyond all of my expectations, it really was! I figured you know since I'm new to moving out and now sure what I'm doing I won't get anything fancy. Just hand me downs, thrift store junk, stuff like that... NOPE! My uncle said he wasn't going to get second hand stuff, I should get these all BRAND NEW!

So I practically screamed and hugged the ever living crap out of him, I actually accidentally lifted him off the ground a couple of times, haha.

Here are the three big things he got me!

Presto Kitchen Kettle - I love using this as a fryer. It's just like my mom's so I know exactly how to use and clean it! Yippie!
Oster Electric Versatility Skillet - I practically cook everything in these things. YES!
Annnd I got a pretty Oster Metallic Red Stainless Steal Toaster!
This is to match my beautiful red blender and microwave!!!
Other things both of them got together for me was a big box of delicious potatoes, I took a bag full home. I got some toilet paper, phew thank goodness cause I can't afford to get more at the moment! And we also get a Brita water pitcher so we don't have to taste the swamp water from the tap any more! YAY!!!! Also got me a HUGE bag of dog food for the poochies, squee they won't run out of food for a very long time now.

I'm just so thankful and so very excited to start cooking with these and have people try my food experiments. I love to cook but I don't know a lot of it, so this is finally my time to brush up on it in my very own kitchen. Eee ee ee <3

My uncle also told me he would talk me shopping for a few other things, nothing big, so I'm a little excited to be doing that too. Means I get to go out and window shop all day! :D

So yeah, I just had to share my good fortune, when I start cooking fun dishes I'll try to take pictures and post them here too!

Thanks so much for reading. - AJ

Giving this baby a kick start.

2010-04-08T09:46:00.002-05:00

It's been a long ass while since I've updated here.

So much in my life has happened, it was like a roller coaster, going through hoops, upside down one moment and right side up again the next. Even thinking about how rushed it all was makes me a little nauseous..

I went through a bit of depression over the end of the year and right as it got started up again, a whole lot of romance and relationship drama. Anyone who is looking for love, I highly reccomend NOT getting into a massive long distance relationship. Specially if you're oceans apart. You go in floating over the world, happy as can be, be before you know it you're crashing down to earth in a burning fury... SMASH! Right into the ground hard with reality of most things of your relationship.

Shit is tough, let me tell ya. So right now, I'm just... Well focusing on me. I can't deal with that much heart ache while there is so much to do!

As a lot of people may have heard on my FA or Twitter, I finally made my move to a new house start of April here. Moving went by so fast, it was a little startling! But I have just about 95% of my own things all unpacked and moved into their place, so that's really nice.

I just got cable and internet yesterday, so here I am chatting away on the net all over again. I really have to get back to catching up on work, subeta and commissions, I wasted enough time with all this packing and unpacking nonsense. What do I have to do before I forgoet.. Finish my quota in the ideal range of 15th... Get my painted portraits done for customers, and a few more pokemon icons.. Then I might be good until next month.

This month we already have all of out stuff mostly paid off, but now I'm actually only left with $2.64 to my name, how funny is that? Thank goodness my mom gave groceries! I just have to be a lot more careful as to where my money goes from now on.

Before all this moving I had ran to the clinic to finally check out why my wrists feel as if their bones are grinding... Doctor really had no explanation, there was nothing wrong with my nerves or bones, so he recommended that I do stretches and work out my arms to help prevent over working them. Thinking about it.. Ouch, I paid $80 for that? Haha... I guess in the end it's more so important to know there is nothing SERIOUSLY wrong with them, yet.

So for now on I'm stretching them as much as I can, wearing my braces on and off, and I just got a couple of little hand weights to lift as I'm watching TV, me working out.. pfff, it's like the world is going to end!

I've been working on a lot of things and I'll be sure to post here more often now that I got all my at home stuff in place, thanks for reading my musings I promise to be more artsy and interesting later! <3

Doodles and Holidays

2009-12-29T11:06:00.003-06:00

How are you all? Good? Good. Happy holidays and all that jazz.

Here are a bundle of doodles/pictures I've had done in the past month or so.
Doodle I did for Tam Ashdene on FA/twitter since I owed him a commission and took forever cause I suck at life. HOPE HE LIKES THIS! :D

This picture was a quickie present for Romance/Thia on subeta.
This is a drawing I did for a customer on SL for about 10$ since it was a simpler character. And I pasted together the whole process I went through to make it, or what I had saved at least.
These are just a couple doodles of ideas I'd like to use for profiles on subeta. For February, the lovey-dovey month. I'd like to use Coacoa! She'd be perfect to rep this month on my profile. The second is of AJ resting on Ashireep as she plays the new pokemon games that will be coming out next March! How exciting! Will I ever finish them though? Who knows.
This was an art trade with Zer/Zeriara/Seux whatever name she uses. She made my character look fab, I don't think I did her character enough justice though.
This was going to be fan art of the Harvest Moon character Calvin, but I got distracted.
Doodle for my friend Mae.
wtf random turtle?
Little devonti sheepy for someone on subeta.
RANDOM COMIC IDEA: A pokemon one with my trainer catching her first pokemon all by herself. She wants her little wooper to meet her Tauros.. Let's just say things don't turn out well.
Doodle of my ashireep.
WIZ! He looks awfully happy.
Bunny? Deer? Say what now?
LOL I'M AN AVATARD. :C I made my own persona-Na'vi... Not horribly fancy or pretty, I didn't draw her eyes big enough apparently but you get the main idea.

Movies I've seen recently.

Chipmunks the squeakquel, to cute. Britney isn't nearly as bitchy like she was in the cartoon series/movies.

Avatar, AMAZING DAMN GRAPHICS. I say go to just see those alone. The story was fun, enjoying myself from the start, middle, near end, but the last ending bit.. Ehhhh, not good enough to me I guess. Could have been better.

Sherlock Holmes, OMG OMG OMG ROBERT DOWNEY JR /gasm.

The princess and the frog, much shorter and slightly choppy story line than I had expected.. but my favorite part was just watching Prince Naveen fall in love with Tiana.. c: So cute..

HOPE YOU ALL DON'T EXPLODE WHEN THE NEW YEAR COMES.

Doodles, pchat style.

2009-11-28T05:04:00.002-06:00

Just adding in some more doodles I forgot last time!

First one here is of my "WoW" character, World of Warcraft. He's a big beefy Tauren dood. I don't really play, but I just love this character, he's pretty bad ass.

This is another character of mine, she's not as old as most of my others but still one of my favorites. Her name is Rachel Summers, she's a hard crime reporter and lives in her risky business. But she's still one pretty kitty.
Not really sure what this fuzz ball is. I think I had "Badger" in mind when I was doodling this. Maybe Wolverine... Not really sure. It's small, it's fluffy, and it looks like it could bite.Last one here is my Harvest Moon persona! If I was in the game Harvest Moon, this is how I'd like to look basically. I've been going HM crazy ever since I just found out that the new HM came out November 15th. The new game is called Harvest Moon: Animal Parade! I already ordered the guide super cheap on black friday, but I hope to get the actual game for the wii in december!

Alright, all I got for doodles for the time being, some times the images on here are to wide to show everything so feel free to click on the images to view all of it. c:

Thanks for looking!

Happy Thanksgiving!

2009-11-26T09:36:00.002-06:00

Hope you all have a happy turkey day! Even if you don't live in the USA or celebrate this holiday! C:

As for me, I'm going to stuff my face. This time of year is the best for empty stomachs!

Doodles and updates.

2009-11-25T00:02:00.004-06:00

Updates on life, let's just say there is more than necessary going on the past couple of weeks. I got so caught up in it I did some damage to my job which I do take full responsibility. I need to keep other people's schedules and think about them, not only myself.

So enough about that BS let's get to the fun!

I've recently joined another.. not sure what you call it but I guess it's a pet site? It's like wajas only not lame with cruddy art.

Some of you might know it, it's www.Khimeros.com!
It's a site where you get to create, collect, and breed your creatures for different types of hybrids and designs that the creatures have. c: Like I could breed the cat and the dog, I get the dog's front half and get the cat's rear end! Looks pretty neat.

I myself have two custom Khimeras of my own design. My design is a night-like theme!
The male is the deer, or Ayalon as they call them, and his name is Arathaniel.
The female is the big cat, or Asadia as they call them, and her name is Shanti.
CLICK THIS IMAGE, IT'S TO LONG FOR MY BLOG LOL

I even have some art of them already! First drawing is by me and the second is by an artist by the username "Trippy" on Khimeros!I hope to collect more art in the future of this lovely couple! I actually already have some future plans to order art from Arbor/Noel and Majime! So I'm very excited to see their renditions of my Khimeras. c:

Now I have lots of other doodles to show!
First one I have to show is a small icon I made after being inspired by my dog named Candy. She's a silly corgi puppy who makes some of the best expressions you can imagine. My friend Katie/Bikuu was holding her and candy gave me this exact look, when I saw it I immediately went "I HAVE TO DRAW THIS!" And did just that!

Just some silly "TEE HEE" icon idea I drew up after seeing everyone else get their characters drawn in it. I wanted to see what my silly AJ might look like in it and I gotta say she turned out cute!
A character I made when I was still getting use to my tablet, her name is Vix. Short for Vixen because she's a female fox and a slut, get it? Wink wink. She's actually a high class prostitute in her character role and her real name is Roxanne, but no one needs to know about her past so let's all call her Vix. I'm extremely proud how the coloring came out on this since I tried to bring out her face more and it really worked, it just shows that practice does in fact pay off.
This is a much older character I designed when I was still in late middle school / early high school. Her name was originally "Jinx" she was some type of monkey girl? I'm not really positive what I was thinking when I made her. But since then I've been redesigning her into a real story project I've been playing in my head for many years now. Maybe some day I can show you this world.
This is a doodle of a bear I think. I'm not sure. It's fluffy though.

And that wraps up all the doodles I have to show right! My scanner is still dead unfortunately so I can't show you my silly sketch book, maybe some time later. c:

Hope you enjoyed them!

Imagine that.

2009-11-12T15:36:00.002-06:00

It's scary when you're told you're going to be homeless in a couple months.

Edit: This just in, my mom sucks with communication. No reason to worry just yet.

Books are out of style.

2009-11-07T03:22:00.003-06:00

At least in grand forks ND they are! They're closing the only two bookstores we have around here due to something like not having enough money to keep them up here and such. I'm so heart broken to hear this, I had spent all morning getting a list of books to save up for.. only to now know even when I have enough money I can't just go down to the local book store and pick it up!

Now I know you can always just get it online, but I've always been a bit uneasy buying stuff online. I prefer to be able to look and handle the product I'm interested in before making my final decision to purchase it. Looks like I won't have that option any more. :C

BUT since they are closing in the next few weeks me and katie decided to splurge a little bit and we each got two books. I got "The Pride of Bagdad" written by Brian K. Vaughan and illustrated by Niko Henrichon --- annnd "Mouse Guard - winter 1152" by David Petersen.. There's one before this one but they sadly didn't have it in stock so I'll have to do without it.

My sister Carmyn has her own library in her place, it's really neat to go and see all the book cases and the books she's collected and hoarded over the years. Well I actually want to do something similar to that, only instead of just random books and stories, I'd love to fill it up with art books that I've managed to collect. And I've finally got the list of how it will start, my AMAZON WISH LIST, not sure if the link will actually work but hopefully it does.

EDIT: And if you have any suggestions for me to check out, please comment below with links or just titles/authors! I'd love to check them out, so I'm pretty open for any suggestions. c:

Annnd so far that's all I got to share. Have some doodles of my wiz puppy. c:

One sheep, two sheep, three..

2009-11-05T00:34:00.003-06:00

Well getting my stuff together now phew... I don't have a lot of what I did before but I have my basics and that's all that's really important.

But still having a lot of trouble with my SAI vs Tablet settings. They are just like cats and dogs at each others throat. oiii. But I'm working on it so hopefully it'll be back to normal soon.

I'm pretty excited to start working up ideas for the Fireside Festival on subeta. I have lots of brain storming to do! I'm not to fabulous with drawing flames/fire but this is a good time to practice, huh? I'll be sure to work on other non-event items too that I've thought up. c:

In the time I've taken to calm down again I've been watching movies pretty much nonstop and hanging with my friends. An older friend Hayley just moved back here so it's been really wonderful to hang with the whole group again!

Movies I've been watching... Mostly on Halloween night with Katie/Bikuu.

The Night Listener with a gay Robin Williams! I'm sorry but I did get a chuckle out of the idea of him in a homosexual relationship. The movie is pretty crazy and keeps you guessing, it really reminds you of what the internet is like with these crazy people whoring for attention. Pff. Only this movie is all real life stuff, scary how people try to get away with some stuff.

Zodiac really had us going. Like we were REALLY into it, I love these suspense mystery films. I need to watch more of them, I also love stuff about serial killers. Kind of whacky I know. I might need more recommendations for films like this.

I also took the time to finally watch Brokeback Mountain just so I could get all the jokes that were referenced or made from that movie. It was odd, cute, and sad. Like violent sudden cowboy butt sex, but awww look at them playing, and then baww ending. :C I actually really liked it.

Saw North Country too. Pretty good I thought, I generally liked it and it made me extremely thankful to be born in these generation. I see some of that sexist bull shit but not nearly as badly as it was back then a few decades ago. We're [Us women] very lucky today.

And the last one we saved for on Halloween night or next day was Adventureland since we thought it'd be freaking funny. And Katie loves Ryan. I'll admit I had low expectations for this movie, I thought it'd be full of retarded humor and scenarios.. Well actually it was pretty life like, not exactly comedy but it had it's funny moments to make the characters likeable. It was better then I thought it would be.

Recently watched The Cell since it was stuff about serial killers and how their mind works. Absolutely fascinating to me. The way they protrayed it was just radical, I really liked this inside the mind world stuff they used in the movie. I'll have to watch the second one now.

And that's all I got on recent movies hrmmm.. I think I'm getting back on the right finacial track here too where I'm not worried and panicking over my next bill due date but still tight on cash. Which reminds me how I desperately need to put 20$ aside and get myself a damn haircut. My head is a weed, I swear! If I get it cut I'll have to post before and after pictures on here, no massive changes but get it thinned and layered up with a nice choppy effect. Who knows, maybe some time I can get my highlights redone too.

ANOTHER NOTE, anyone know how to get a dog to let you file their nails? My little candy baby corgi has long nails and the pink is getting pretty far out so I don't want to clip them and cause pain. So I've been told to file them, I have that pedipaws but she really won't stand for me to use it on her. Not sure what else to do at this point, I wish I could hire someone professionally to file them down. :C

Also, you guys care to recommend any hamster chew-stuff? They seem bored lately but they're so freaking picky it's hard to get them anything special when they usually reject it all. xD

Still completely addicted to my pokemon games to boot, katie got me the book/guide for PKMN Mystery Dungeon explorers of the SKY! Wheee, I already have most of it beat now and did the special eps so I'm just messing around on it. I can't wait for HG/SS... Literally I want to jump and squeal just thinking about getting it. ; ;

Last thing I can take note on is I can't sleep lately. It goes on like this.. I'm very tired, I'm rubbing my eyes, I can't stop yawning.. Just no energy yanno? So I go and lie down for bed. I lay there. And lay.. and lay.. Toss and turn some.. lay... Groan about how I'm wasting time when I could be working, fixing, or drawing something so I get up and the process completely repeats. I'm to tired to work but I'm not tired enough to sleep. Obviously it's my poor diet and activity coming into play here, it's just to cold to walk every morning now like I do in the summer.. brrrr. :c

Other then that, I haven't got much to update on. I could bawww about how the cartoon Chowder got canceled but I'm lazy. :c Just let it be known my heart is broken that I will no longer see my Schnitzel...

HULK SMASHHHHHH

2009-10-30T20:36:00.002-05:00

Yo peeps, been a while right?

Lost my computer on the 18th via burned out mother board.

Now it's back in working order, so much for just over night fix? I'll tell you where I'm never taking my computer again! Not only did they keep my computer for just under two weeks and for the past several days guarantee I'd have it back in a couple of hours they lost a part to my computer, forgot to screw it back together, and didn't even give me the 25$ back up CD I requested.

I just now found most of my back up items, thank god. I was ready to kill a mofo.

But a couple hours ago I literally went into a fit of rage of screaming and crying. Something I haven't done in a long time, I felt like I was acting like a 5 year old having a massive tantrum. But finally I calmed down with a splitting head ache, a bruised right hand, and my cell phone completely smashed to bits. GO ME!

I have to spend the whole night reinstalling everything and getting my computer back on track before I can get back to work on my subeta stuff or commissions I had progressed from DA.

No idea how much it will run me for the new phone, gotta talk with my mom about it. I already ran to the alltel place and they said we could renew my mom's phone plan and just use that to get a discounted phone since my adorable scoop wasn't insured, perfect. But again, need to talk with my mom before anything gets decided, she'll be pissed I know it. I know I am, YES I AM AN IDIOT! :C

So for now I'm spending the rest of the night in shambles from stress trying to put back the pieces of everything. Hopefully it all gets back in order and I can move on.

Just cross your fingers and hope my house or car doesn't blow up, with the luck I've been having it's honestly possible.

When it rains, it pours.

2009-10-20T11:44:00.003-05:00

So things were going alright until my little melt down, soon as I let myself open up and cry it out things only got worse.

Late night on the 18th my desktop computer died. This is my main computer, my work computer, and my arting computer. Everything I have is on it.

In a panic I tried to find a way to fix it and had a friend come over to look. We popped off the case and cleaned out all the dust, she assumed it was the power supply. And with that we ourselves couldn't do anything about it.

The next morning at 10am on the 19th I took my computer to Tech Medics across the street. They were very kind and friendly. That put me at some ease after I explained the situation. So I left my computer with them and they would call me when they found what was officially wrong with it.

So I just got a call today on the 20th. My motherboard or something is fried. I just managed to scrape together 50$ to pay for their service... but now I need to get another $350+ to repair it and for parts....

I'm almost completely broken at this point. I'm scared I won't get my desktop back, I'm scared I'll lose my new job, I'm just scared that everything I planned just went down the toilet in a simple power outage.....

I'm breaking down all over again. I'm not sure if I can get this money together. There is no reasonable way to get it.

I just had to vent a little more from my cranky laptop, I've been trying to draw on it but so far it's proving to be extremely difficult without my art programs and drivers...

I love my computer. They said it was probably a good idea to go get a brand new one, I told them that wasn't an option. My computer has been extremely loyal to me, always worked hard under all the stress I put it through, and all around is amazing. I can't just throw it away. I have to find a way to pay them to fix it.... Right now they won't take monthly payments especially on parts so it has to be upfront, my worst fear.

For now I'll try to keep updated here once in a while, wish me luck. I really need some right now...

Again, yes, money does buy happiness.
Anyone who tells you different is full of shit.
And if it isn't buying it, it's PROTECTING your happiness, we all need that.

On a lighter note. TP!!!

2009-10-17T23:16:00.002-05:00

Heh.. Well I'd also figure I should post something worth looking at for those who aren't interested in my sob stories.

New item just came out on subeta today that I drew!How perfect for my mood, right? Haha!

Bare with me.

2009-10-17T22:27:00.002-05:00

Right now I'm having a bit of a life crisis. Nothing major, nothing extremely threatening in the least. But it's having a severe attack on my mind and conscious. I feel as if I'm slowly losing my mind as I try to think of answers, compromises. Something that will make everyone happy. But such a conclusion is absolutely impossible to come too with everyone involved in the situation. Dre, my mother, my sister, and my father... So much is depending on me and I know I can't do it when they expect me to soar with flying colors. It's heart breaking.

I have done nothing but repeatedly make bad decisions. I jump into things I don't quite understand and it bites me in the ass. I got everyone's hopes up only to watch myself crash and burn in the full glorious failing flames.

Let me start from the very beginning. Prepare yourself, you're in for a long read.

It all started with the very start of 2009. As soon as my boyfriend left back for his home in Australia I began to get depressed. In this state I slowly began to lose all drive and ability to draw much of anything. This was the biggest blow I've ever faced for so long seeing how I would focus on drawing for several long hours in on sitting a day to doing nothing but laying in bed all week in tears.

Slowly my commissions began to slip and pile up. I kept taking more and more because I honestly needed the money... For bills, food, my pets and home. Many things. But I just couldn't manage to do my half of the deals any more. Just recently I finally owned up to my failure as a professional artist and told everyone I'll have to refund them all due to me not being able to complete the work that I had promised in our business agreement.

In this slump I tried to think of many solutions to my problems. And the final outcome? Why don't I start off in my career as I wait for Dre? The biggest mistake I ever did right there. I jumped into and asked my oldest sister, Carmyn, for all the help she had to offer me in looking at the tech, filling out all the endless forms, and even helping me with my books. She's the one I'm so upset for letting down. She really believed in me and I couldn't pull myself together to even suck it up for her sake. For my moms sake too.

Well, just before school started there was that whole Cash for Clunkers sale deal going on. It was the very last weekend for it as we realized and my mom had to work. So again Carmyn took me out in her free time to go and see if we could even trade in my clunker. Turns out my car was perfect for the $4,500 off deal the system had. We looked all over town and in a flash we had decided then and there to get a car. And after that week, I had a brand new car.

This decision I won't regret though. I'm so happy to have this new vehicle so I can take care of and make sure it doesn't turn into a clunker itself. But the car was very expensive to me, $17,000 or something. In the range at least. But dock about 4500 and some money we tossed in it was taken down to the price of $9,000-$10,000 to now pay off on a monthly bill.

This is what now is adding to the problem. I jumped into the college idea thinking this was my chance to get into learning something useful again, how excited I was!.....
How very if not extremely wrong I was.

College at the Tech. was nothing I had expected. I'd never felt so let down in my life. But still I bit my lips and strained a smile telling myself, "Oh it'll get better, just you wait! Just a bit longer and you're done!!!" But even with all this chanting in my head I couldn't manage to hold myself together. I sank back into such a depressive state I hadn't felt since the night my house burned to the ground knowing I had abandoned my babies to die there. But that is a story I won't be getting into.

Slowly I began to get sicker and sicker. I was so sick for nearly a month and a half I could barely leave my bed to go to the bathroom. I had missed so much school I didn't know what to do or how I could face them going back. This only made everything worse.

So in a fit of desperation I sent a note to a long time favorite artist of mine that I'd always looked up to asking for any advice. They gave me so much information, I didn't expect it at all. With all this newer information I felt rejuvenated, relieved, and almost confident again as I began to sink into some of the art studies they showed me.

Couple weeks go by as I practice daily, my mother begins to hound me about college. But what could I tell her? I didn't know what to say. I had already planned on not going back. But if I had stayed I wouldn't owe financial aid any money and my father would have given me and my mother $5,000 to help pay off some of the car. At the time I didn't know a lot of this information so I hadn't really cared.

But after finding out I began to feel guilty. I tried to go back to school but I couldn't keep at it again to practice my art. In my time practicing I thought about getting a new job to help with payments on the car and bills, luckily for me I actually got the job and now am working my very first month over at the pet site called Subeta. I'm only a part-time employee, but I hope if I work hard enough, get enough help, and get a good enough shove in the right direction I can convince them I would make myself a valuable member of their team and worthy enough to work full time. I'm not ready yet for such responsibility yet but I hope someday I will be.

Now I haven't been to my classes in weeks. I've already failed them I assume. But how am I to tell my family this? I've already blew a fuse and broke down crying to my boyfriend Dre trying to think of solutions to this problem. I know that if I continue to work very hard on my own with my art and my job over on Subeta I will find a way to pull through. But that won't stop the disappointment of my mother and sister. That won't stop their concern and worry. That won't stop their anger with me.

I have many plans for the future, many goals I have set to accomplish with new information I have learned over the past couple of months. I honestly believe that I can pay off the car on my own, pay back the financial aid, and pay back the small remainder I owe my sister. And of course all my commissions.

But how do I convince my sister and mother? I can't. I have done nothing to earn their trust and belief in me. I don't deserve their doubt and I know it.

I know I can pay everyone back if I just woke a little harder, sell some of my stuff, give myself up for pracs, just anything. But that's not what I'm afraid of. I'm scared of them telling me every single day what a loser I am. How disappointed they are in me. How I don't deserve anything.... not even their love.

That's what I'm so devasted about at the moment.

So if I seem out of it lately, I apologize. I'm finally cracking a bit but only so much helps.

They say money can't buy happiness. I'll be 180% honest, it really does. Because being poor, broke, and/or in dept tears people apart even worse.

Wish me luck, I'll do my best to keep working hard. So long as I hear people cheering me on it will help keep me going. You all have no idea how much it means to me to hear, "good luck ash!" "you can do it!" "we believe in you".... It really helps keep me going when times get tough.

Thanks for bothering to look and read.
- Ashi J

Almost forgot the cupcakes!

2009-10-14T10:44:00.006-05:00

For Subeta's Morostide [Halloween] holiday!

I'm pretty sure you can find these cuties in the pumpkin patch. c;
I actually need these myself for my pet Coacoa's treasure chest since she collects cupcakes lol!

Figured I'd add that for now. <3

Fireflies and Icebergs

2009-10-12T02:26:00.004-05:00

Making another post because I feel like it. :D

So just yesterday I was able to get ahold of all the albums and singles of one of my favorite bands. Owl City. I'm pretty excited because I haven't been able to listen to the new album Ocean Eyes or any of the singles really.

I started off with these two and now getting completely hooked on the newest one.

Now I only just started listening..... But I am really liking the song "Tip of the iceberg". It reminds me a lot of the time when Dre was here and a bit how we love each other. Haha, silly right? But I love the tune too, it's just so consuming like I wouldn't be able to hear anything else when I listen to this song. OH! And another reeeeally good one I'm liking is the song "Fireflies"!

Here's their website if you'd like to check them out yourself.

Gaming it up again.

2009-10-11T22:02:00.005-05:00

So Bikuu/Katie was looking at games agian to play, she goes through them like crazy. While sitting back and listening to her talk about them it made me seriously miss them. But I wouldn't know what I could possibly play...

I use to be a complete Ragnarok Online junkie back in the day, I've always loved that game but you can only try so many free servers... I played a little flyff too but it's such a grind fest I never had any real fun. People there aren't exactly friendly to boot..

Then it hit me what game to play. It was one I had dropped a year ago, last fall, due to some maintenance issues with my computer. So I went to the site to see if my account was still active, sure enough it was still there and ready to be picked up after a whole year.

So now I'm playing Asda Story Online again. C:

It's a pretty cute game, a lot like flyff actually... Only.. Way more fun in my opinion! People who play it are a lot friendlier too.

This is my current character, Rixi. Right now I'm a level 32 Knight.I play on channel 2 mostly.
[Click the picture to see the whole image!]

So yeah, it's been even more fun that I've got back on to see all the new features the game has to offer! I even met up with a really nice clan called Reminisce that's been helping me get back into the game and let me join their group. Super swell of them. C:

But yeah, haven't been up to a whole lot other than this. I need to stop being so lazy and get back to work, lol!

More releases today?

2009-10-07T17:39:00.003-05:00

Oh wow, they even released my Apple and Lemonlime beanbags today too on Subeta!

I did these along with the Chocolate Tress wig to show on my application and decided to reuse them for subeta. C: I love fruity themes, don't you?

First subeta releases!

2009-10-07T15:25:00.004-05:00

Oh wow, pretty excited my first items were released today on subeta.

First one is what I called the Chocolate Tress, which is almost a bit embaressing cause I made it a few weeks ago to put on my application and I should have redrawn the idea but I must admit I just got lazy. xD Not the most amazing wig, color, or design but it's something!

The other ones were my 'Fluff' wigs. I decided to draw them simply because I personally adore shorter hair styles and I saw a similar style in a manga I was reading. I can't remember which manga it was now.. something with a K. Lol... But yeah, so here's one example!

Not a whole lot of people liked them, but that's understandable. They aren't as flashy and nice as the other wigs, plus I must admit that the Fluff ones were more for me than anyone else simply because it's one of my personal favorite styles.. Haha.

Can you believe they came out is 15 different colors? There were originally 18 or something but I took a few out. Still so many! A couple natural-ish colors and the rest pretty unnatural for kicks.

But yeah, I'll be sure to post some more of my stuff that happens to come out on subeta here for anyone that shows interest. C:

I can't wait to see if people will like my other creations now. <3

Sup.

2009-10-06T21:27:00.002-05:00

I forgot all about this blog. I'm not to fond of LJ so I thought I'd pick this up again.

I'll try to keep updating here and posting doodles every now and then.

Thanks for stopping by. C:

- AshiJ